The TRUE Art Of Pain & Transformation
The Ayn Sof
There is NO SUCH THING as an impossible situation when communing with the Universal Energy of Life. Even after death the Soul continues It’s ascent in Eden through the Prayers of the living. To say a situation is impossible is to cut yourself OFF COMPLETELY from all possibility of that which you seek to change or become.
Most people admire butterflies and speak of the “transformation” from a caterpillar to a butterfly. They NEVER take into consideration the caterpillar goes through HELL to become a butterfly. Some say it’s a forced transformation, that the caterpillar has no choice, but life is NOT unconnected. If someone cuts the caterpillar out of the cocoon the butterfly will NEVER fly. There is NO transformation without suffering.
Let’s get real! There really is no such thing as transformation anyways. It’s just about exchanging Energy and perspective. Lorca wrote, “Agony never ceases it only changes form.” So too with human life. It only changes it’s perspective. We just use big words like “transformation” to make ourselves feel better, have some fake goal to go after or an excuse to judge ourselves or others. When we see through the Inner Eye, we will become what we ALREADY (ALL READY) ARE. As William Blake wrote, “When the doors of perception are cleansed (The Inner 3rd Eye) man will see things as they REALLY ARE INFINITE.
When we speak of transformation we are really only speaking of “dumping” an old way of being and “acting” in a new way. If we could see that there is NO WAY to live in the past, we would understand that we can only GET STUCK IN THE NOW!!! NOT LIVE IN THE PAST. As life continues to renew, as the human body “renews” every seven years, we are renewing CONSTANTLY like “a snake crawling out of it’s own dead skin.” The only thing open to speculation is how we are renewing. In other words are we using outdated info to deal the us of today or are we holding onto our old worn out skin and way of being? Or are we crawling into a new way of being? If we are going into a new way of being we must let go of the “comfort” of the past and deal squarely with the pain of a new way of being. Suffering is a part of elevation, as it is written by the Greek Poet Aeschylus, “Those who learn must suffer, and even in our sleep, pain which cannot forget, falls drop by drop, upon the human heart, until against our will comes understanding from the awful Grace of G-d.”
What stops most people is themselves. We get in our own way. When fear of change is greater than the pains of now we are now facing we sit alone and NEEDLESSLY suffer. The more give into the illusion that we are alone and there is “no way out” the more fear (the Erev Rav, the true evil) takes hold and “shells” us into our own self made prison. Instead of using resources such as faith, love, experience, instead of taking a chance and having faith, the false energies of blame, anger and regret get “hold” of our ship, our being, and direct us deeper into the direction we don’t want to go.
Before any major change, there is usually a cleansing process to free us from OURSELVES. The process is usually painful, hard and intense, BUT it is WHAT WE NEED, even if we do not see that it is. When in the “process” of cleansing one must remain IN THEIR TRUE NATURE. What this means is that one must STAY AWAY from the false force energies that it is impossible. One must see the deeper meaning of what is happening to them. The Talmud writes, “Examine the content not the bottle.” Look deeper into what is going on in your life and instead of blaming, ask yourself, what patterns of destruction, or ways of being, am I holding onto that are keeping me in a self made prison and STUCK IN THE PAST.
When going through our “cleansing” be very careful!!!!!!! Many times the cleansing is telling us to get rid of certain people “close” to us. DO NOT COLLASP THIS TO MEAN EVERYONE!!!!!!! When not seeing through the Inner Eye we may tend to see enemies as friends and friends as enemies. In truth there are no “enemies” there is only the misunderstanding people have of themselves and their power and words. But it doesn’t mean to keep those around you whose energies are draining you in an Erev Rav way. This means that someone “hard” to be with may be there because they are teaching you something you need to learn or advance yourself with. BUT this doesn’t mean you have to be in their sinking ship with them. This is a hard point because one needs to really see within to know the “Higher Truth” of what each persons reality is bringing to them.
What seems impossible may only be THE CHALLENGE OF YOUR LIFE! If you have the experience, the structure and the resources THEN YOUR CHALLENGE IS ABOUT HOW YOU ARE GOING TO — — USE THOSE RESOURCES AND PEOPLE! Those who see the “Spiritual” opportunity within the challenge AND understand the REALITY of life, the street can overcome most anything because THEY FOCUS ON THE EFFORT not only the immediate stress in the situation or the outcome alone.
Your going through it anyway!!! To have a fatalistic attitude is to make the path twice as hard. To have an attitude to “just have faith and it will all work out” is to not deal with the situation. These are the extreme paths. Remember the story of Abraham, he “bound” Isaac and then came Yakov who “dwelt in many Tents (Sphere).” This means, as written, “the world cannot exist on the Attribute of Mercy or Judgment alone” which is what Abraham (Mercy) and Isaac (Judgment) means. It requires the Path of Yakov. The middle path where Mercy and Judgment combine to become the Attribute of Justice. The center will yield balance. Remember when one stands in the center of the earth, one can go in ANY direction.
Life is NOT what we make it. What we “make” makes our lives. Our thoughts, speech and action are things WE are in charge of. As the Alter Rebbe says in the Tanya, “How we “cloth/feed” them decides who and what we are. In other words our animal Soul or our Divine Soul both fight for possession of us. They battle. Who wins? The one we feed and cloth more!
Love basically spelled backwards contains Evolve. Stressed spelled backwards spells Desserts. We must always ask ourselves if we are seeing and dealing with the people in our lives correctly and more so, we must ask if we are seeing our own inner potential for what it REALLY is!!!!!!!
When I know that I am the only one stopping my intention I become free to see the prison I’ve created. When I see the prison I created, I then see that I am the warden and guard also. When I see what’s truly broken, BEYOND my fears and illusions, I can grasp what Rabbi Nachman of Breslov said, “If you could see ALL the broken things in something clearly. You would ALSO be able to Understand It in its perfect working form as well. EVEN if you never saw that thing before!” How true with life! Life is never really about a “constant”. Life is about experience and internal and external evolution. We came here as Souls to experience this. There’s not really a “manual” for the greatest gift G-d gave man is “free will”. Life is simply about our choice. It’s written in many cultures that we “choose” as Souls to “come” here to earth, to manifest as Human. The body is but the Souls Cocoon. We just are and when situations present themselves, or challenges occur, many times ALL we have is our choice to go with it. Many times life requires WE LEARN AS WE GO!!! Remember the story when President John F. Kennedy asked Robert McNamara to be part of the “best and the brightest” of the Kennedy Administration. President Kennedy offered him position after position, to which Robert McNamara replied, “I don’t have any experience with that.” Finally Kennedy said, “Bob, there’s no school for Presidents either!” Needless to say, McNamara took a position. We can study and train all we want, but many times we truly have to trust who we are and what we have already (all ready) and just “GO FOR IT!” as Sylvester Stallone said to his opponent in Rocky III.
Whatever happens ALWAYS There is no way to truth and love. Truth and love ARE THE WAY.
Eric Sander Kingston